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Am i alone?
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[10 May 2005|05:50pm] |
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so just went to my first A.A meeting kinda werid i went with randy ... but i have to say liked it after words we went out to eat at the monument grill. poor kid spent like 70 dollars i felt sooo bad ... errrr i dont like him spending money on me... BUt i love him to death..... skools been gay but hay gotta deal with it ... ne ways sooo hes getting clean agian and im sooo glad i love that kid to death .... 20,000 more times when he is straight lol. well that s iot luv kimberli!
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[02 May 2005|11:32pm] |
those sad eyes break me down every day i just want to see them sparkle.
like you said " i never new i had to look for love no ferther then my own back yard"
skool tomorrow time to sleep goodnight.
<3 KIMBERLI
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[26 Apr 2005|06:17pm] |
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well well well ...... going on 4 months almost ne ways, yup got my liscence what sucks thoughi dont have a fuckin car damnit .... ooo well .... its alright ... sooo me and my b/f and cody went to pandora bread and found fuckin bugs in our sandwichs niccccccccceeee!! we got our money back then we went and saw amytiville horror it was gay ! well life is pretti much then same old thing nothiung much has changed other then my rooom ahhhh ... its sooo plain now ! lol well g2g byebye
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[13 Apr 2005|07:31pm] |
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for some odd reason i feel not good enough... not pretti enough not the perfect weight ... or the perfect look ... why the fuck does he like me? out of everyone i dont understand i look at myself in the mirror and ask myself everyday why is he with me? and not someone else sooo much prettier then me......
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[30 Mar 2005|07:29pm] |
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sooo ive been thinking..... can i trust her? i dunno man i realli dont know ne more... hmmmm u want to know if he is going to beach week ? why? ....... well ne ways sooo me and him havent fought in 4 days which is a record for us lol.... but were doing good and im soo happy that we are .... i cant describe the feeling i have when im around him.... the butterflys mixed with sooo much hapiness i know it sounds gay but i havent been this happy in sooo long and im hopeing it lasts for a while ... im glad i have him in my life.... i hope he feels the same way .
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[17 Mar 2005|11:34pm] |
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Reasoning for me not to update ...because i am sooo happy and busy with my other ... i cant describe the feeling i get when i look into his eyes its wonderus .... it makes me feel soo safe inside... he meet everything i ever needed ... nothing has gone wrong ... im hopeing it never will ... im with him for as long as it lasts ... i love him ...... and my best friend jaime well she is AWSOME! and i love her to ! GOOD TIMES GOOD TIMES
<3 always,
kimberli!
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[07 Feb 2005|08:57pm] |
wellll hows life??/??...
hmmmmmmmmmmmm pretti damn welll i half to say cant get much better than this!
<3kimberli
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[06 Jan 2005|10:24pm] |
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well havent written in this in a very long time ... well i guess im trying to straighin up my act wonderful nick has a g/f to bad she dont knwo one thing........ hes a cheater ...hahaha ne ways ya sooo i guess he still loves me and all that bullshyt but honselty who knows ne more im sick of the miond game back and foreth bullshyt between me and her if he love me he should make up his god damn mind ne ways yaaa im not realli in the mood to say my whole life story thats gone on these past couple of months sooo peace.
<3 KIMBERLI
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[02 Oct 2004|05:49pm] |
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heeeeeeeeelloooo,
well life to me has going pretti well ya know no fights and shyt gotta a few rumors and shyt oging around how nick went out with melissa and fucked her and shyr but thats about it... i got the nut living backin my house to fun ass shyt NOT! ummm skools been pretti damn good latley also i dont like ne of my classes but hay their easy ... sont talk to much of NE ONE ne more either ... it aint ne of their faults or nicks i dunno i just been real distant from EVERYONE latley ... i just wanna stay in my own little world and since i have been dping ythat i havent been screwing up ne thing... nick got his tongue periced helllz ya ... hahha more pleasure for me YA!... ne ways he wantsd me to get mine done to and i asked my dad and he said he'd disown me if i ever did it .... thats sux huh ... well ne way thatsa alll i gotta dsay for now !!! PEACE!
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[02 Sep 2004|07:32pm] |
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well today i lost the one true person i LOVED and the onli person i trusted with my life ... i fucked things up for a long time and im trying with everything i got to make it up to make it all disaeper ... i love him i want him to see that ... he means the world to me ... he lights my soul he keeps me alive... he even said he talked to my mom ... and he told me she todl him to tell me she misses me ... i can never find someone like you ... i can never find someone with that same smile or that personality thats just blows me away ...im gonna miss you ... im gonna miss you more then ne thing ... nething thing ... i love you always will ...
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[21 Aug 2004|11:03pm] |
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well i guess we worked everything out i have a few things i have to do to make up for what i did and im gonna do them ... he scared me tonight though scared me alot....
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its 8:45 in the morring and nick just called me up yelling at me cuz i trold angela i would give her a 100 dollars for shyt ... im soo scared now i dunno what hes gonna do when i go to his house today i dont even wanna rthink about it... 2 days ago was bad enough ... not agian.. plez not agian
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[12 Aug 2004|11:21pm] |
well today was going good me andf nick were tlkaing until at least mabye 3:00 then i went off and did ny shysnett saw vanessa around 10:00 and shyt ya know gotta little suttin suttin haha just kidding!!!.... ne ways i found out that nick gave desirea her number ooooo ya im preettrti fuckin pissed off havent tlake dot him at all yet either and i dunno what the hell im gonna say to him cuz he told desiera that he broke up wiht me ! im sooo fuckin pissed off rihg tnowe i dunno what the fuck to do !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ahhh damn im soooo pissed the fuck offf what am i gunno do he i such an ass
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[10 Aug 2004|11:38pm] |
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well today has been another shytty day came home at 11:00 and called nick did he answer no i left a message explaing to him that i feel like we are falling apart and im lossing him and how we rarley ever see eachother ne more... i cant deal with it i cant deal with lozing the person i love ... we are still together its been almost a year and a half... yet for some reason i can tell he dont love me ne more and he just wants to fool wioth my head onli if he new how much this was realli hurting me .... if i acted the same way he is right now i know for a fact hed dump me in a second but i wouldnt i never would he cant feel the way i feel cuz i dont treat him like a dog... he gives me surtin rules to obey by or i get punished ... IM BROKE INSIDE </3!
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[09 Aug 2004|12:04am] |
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well today was goin fine until i got a fone call fomr nick and he said he was still cmaping which he wasent cuz hes a fuckin LIER cuz i calle dhis house and his mom said "ooo no hes not here he just left the house about a half hour ago to go to shawns" .... then we broke up becuz he said he didnt wanna go out with me ne more and shyt i was pissed and i did some crying then calmed down called him back and he said he was "JUST KIDDING" ...... Nice way to play with my fuckin heart asswhole.... then i got ahold of him around i would say 11:30 and i asked him if he loved me and he said sometimes.... and i said if u love someone how can u just love them somtimes and he said its by the way i act... im pretty sure when u love somone it doesntmatter how they act well them i started to cry and he made fun of me ... and told me to go cry somewhere else because he didnt want to here it .... im in a wonderful relatrionship i cant smile ne mor ei dont know what to do because i dont wanna loose him but i know that if he was out of my life id be alittle happier cuz he always makes me cry... and the pathetic thing iss that my WHOLE journal is pretty much about him because nothing else happens thats dramatic and shyt in my life cuz when ever im out im just chillin doin shyt and havin a great time ... but the bad shyt always seems to happen with him no one else.....
hopeing everything will turn out better dought it though.....
i lie awake tonight bleeding myself to sleep
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Today has been the shittyst day of my life nicks on the other line righ tnow going on 2 hours with sum other girl im pretti positve ... all he likes to do is fuyckin up my life and bring me down 24/7 i cant remeber the last time i smiled and i meant it for real though i cant ..... i cant handle this shyt ... i just wanna beat his ass so fuckin bad but im not like that unlike him ... hes probabli gonna get pissed off at me for calling is house at 12 in the morring and gfuckin choke me like he usualli does or if im luvky through me down some stairs... ive lost GREAT friends ANd awsome memories all becuz of his control freak ass ....He wants to do fuckin E and drink well fuck it then ill go back to my god damn self popin pills and cuttin lets see how he fuckin likes it when i break promises .... i fuckin hate him .... but one quesiton i cant seem to answer is WHY DO I STILL LOVE HIM?
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[02 Aug 2004|08:14pm] |
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mmmmmm just got back form maine a little while agooo had a good time ..... lol well it took us a bit longer than usual to get up their becuz nessa's mom started to go the wrong wayt back home when we stoped to get gas she relized agian when she said "why are we still in massachussetts" lol its was kinda funni i saw a few of my frtiends up in maine also they were kinda drunk ... lol fallin all over the placer exspecially this kid dustin who said he was umm 13 he didnt quit lok like thirteen then we had nicks little brother Rocky and alex wich are about NINE years OLD!!!!!! Saying all this dirty stuff lol and trying to pick us uip and shyt then ..... me and nessa layed out in the sun and i gotta SUNBURN!!!! OUCH!.. well other then the sunburn i had a fun tyme and i cant wait to go back up with nessa ....Hellz ya! welll peace im out !
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